It’s too high a standard for the monsters who call themselves the human race. To be always humane is a standard far beyond the will and capabilities of the monsters who call themselves the human race. But when it comes to perfecting evil they’re ready, willing and so very able. Throughout my wretched existence they’ve been driven to achieve higher standards of evil. OF COURSE I NEED TO DIE. But they want to do pure evil. So they force me to live so they can keep on making me want to die. They deliberately make me want to die. This is an act which can only be done by beings of pure evil.