What they did to me before they made me want to die defines the monsters who call themselves the human race. They are evil. They are evil at their core. Evil is their nature. What they did after they decimated my will to live is work hard to perfect evil. They want to perfect evil and they succeeded with what they do to me. OF COURSE I NEED TO DIE. But the monsters who call themselves the human race want to achieve the heights of pure evil so they force me to live.