An essential element of hell is making the victim want to die. The other element is mercilessness. It’s not enough to make the victim want to die. It’s essential to force them to live and keep on making them want to die. This is real hell and the monsters who call themselves the human race have gone to great lengths to realise this hell for me. OF COURSE I NEED TO DIE. But the monsters who call themselves the human race force me to live so they can keep on making me want to die. They are monsters after all. What else would they do and do so very well?