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“I’m sorry for what we’ve done to you. I’m sorry you’ve had to wait so long. We’ll help you die today.” These are the words I want to hear. Not some bullshit a psychological therapist has to offer.

England’s government seems to think that therapists have some magic words which will end my suffering and make me want to live. They think the Samaritans have something to offer me but all they have are empty words too.

If words were effective I’d have been saved a long time ago. If words were enough to protect me from human evil then I’d never have needed to ostracise the wretched vermin species out of my life as much as I have. 

If words worked magic then the fetish the government has for words to help save suicidal individuals would be justified. But it’s not.

These are the magic words which will save me, “we will help you die today”, but these words can’t be uttered in truth by evil vermin. It takes a good man to speak these words truly.

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The protection of the innocent from punishment is irrelevant when doctors do the punishment. This is the truth about psychiatry and suicide. 

Doctors imprison suicidal individuals. Doctors forcibly electrocute suicidal individuals. Doctors do countless other cruelties and injustices to suicidal individuals.

They get away with punishing the innocent therefore they get away with doing what evil does.

A central principle of the criminal justice is that the innocent should not be punished. To do so is evil.

But doctors can do whatever they want to their victims just as they’ve done to me. They do evil and no one stops them.

I pray for my death. I work for my death. I fight for my good death. Do you get it? I want to die. It is my only hope.

It is tragic to have to fight for my death when I know that it’s my right to choose. 

Assisted suicide is the only protection that could have saved me a long time ago. It’s the only thing which can save me even now in this very moment. 

The cruelty just can’t stop. That’s why I need to die to be saved. That’s why assisted suicide isn’t legal. Because cruel people have no basic mercy.

It’s the abundant and unlimited cruelty of modern humanity which has made me suffer and made me want to die. People do it. Nothing else but the cruelty of the human race makes dying the desirable solution. 

I have to fight this cruelty to get the death I so desperately need to save me from unbearable suffering and the inherent cruelty of the human race which is essential to my tragedy.

I don’t want to fight. I don’t want to work. I don’t want to pray. I just want to die.

I pray for my death. I work for my death. I fight for my good death. Do you get it? I want to die.

It is tragic to have to fight for my death when I know that it’s my right to choose. 

Assisted suicide is the only protection that could have saved me a long time ago. It’s the only thing which can save me even now in this very moment. 

The cruelty just can’t stop. That’s why I need to die to be saved. That’s why assisted suicide isn’t legal. Because cruel people have no basic mercy.

It’s the abundant and unlimited cruelty of modern humanity which has made me suffer and made me want to die. People do it. Nothing else but the cruelty of the human race makes dying the desirable solution. 

I have to fight this cruelty to get the death I so desperately need to save me from unbearable suffering and the inherent cruelty of the human race which is essential to my tragedy.

I don’t want to fight. I don’t want to work. I don’t want to pray. I just want to die.

Sanctity of life versus quality of life: the God given decision which every suicidal individual makes to choose quality over quantity of life

I always wanted a short and happy life, not a long and miserable one.

You can make the choice yourself. Do you want to live and suffer decades of unbearable suffering? 

I think most people would choose quality of life over quantity. Obviously everyone would choose a long and happy life but this is a privilege I’ve never had.

The legalisation of assisted suicide is all about the respect for the freedom to choose death over living a long, wretched, miserable life full of unbearable suffering. It’s about the recognition that there are fates worse than death and I’ve known too many of them.

Suicide is a liberty like divorce or abortion. It’s a personal choice to make and not one which should be determined by anyone else other than the person whose life and death it is. 

 The sad fact is that the quality of current humanity is all about forcing people like me to endure unbearable suffering. It’s another salient reason to die.

Suicide is about pain. Specifically it’s about escaping from unbearable pain in the present or the future.

This is blatantly obvious but for hundreds of years people, politicians, judges and doctors have believed that suicide is caused by a brain defect.

Suicide is the natural and rational response of a conscious being who doesn’t want to suffer more than they can handle. It’s why I want to die and need to die. I don’t want to suffer.

Unfortunately this truth still escapes the powers that keep assisted suicide illegal. This tyranny of evil is based on the heartlessness which is allowed by the idea of mental illness. 

These words really resonate with how I feel about this.

Evil is legal. Cruelty is legal. Mercy is illegal. Because the human race is evil.

I should be dead already but it’s a crime to help me die a good death to end this wretched and ruined existence I call my life.

It is my life and it is my death. But the people who want me to endure unbearable suffering don’t care. This heartlessness defines the human race. Both the powerful elite and the silent majority. 

The heartlessness which is essential to the human race and the cruelty of forcing me to endure unbearable suffering is why I’ve grown to hate the human race. They are cruel, evil, heartless, merciless vermin whose only duty in my life has been to create hell after hell.