What happens if being alive feels like punishment? It gets worse because assisted suicide is criminalised. This is how innocent people have their sense of punishment becomes turned into hell.

I’d be excited to be about to die. I feel no other excitement.

Death slavery. Suicide slavery. I’m not sure how to name the modern slavery which happens to suicidal individuals today. The monsters own their victim’s choice to die. Nonetheless I can say as any slave would say to their slavery, “go to hell. Know what you do to me.”

If only people could fight for my will to live like it was there own. Then I’d never have needed to die and neither would you. But humankind is so far from being kind.

I need to die because the human race is evil.

The core of the suicide system must be humane but it’s not in the medicalised suicide system. The medicalised suicide system is evil, incompetent and cruel because there’s a lie at its core.

So much effort to prevent suicidal individuals from committing a successful suicide or getting a good death. So much evil.

I need to die because of the innate human evil which made me want to die but wouldn’t help me doe after the desecration of my will to live. There’s too much human evil for me to live. So they force me to live to suffer.

The cost of murdering my will to live? My good death. But life isn’t fair. It’s another reason to die.

There’s a fundamental question. Am I crazy to want to die or am I rational to want to die? The former allows for so much cruelty and is the basis of the medicalised suicide system. The latter is the humane and empathic understanding of the decision to die. The former is evil and the latter is good. The former is a lie and the latter is all about the truth. Suicide is the natural and rational response of a conscious being to suffering unbearable suffering. Or it’s caused by brain defect…